Change is EVERYTHING

I'm about the age when people start asking if your having a mid-life crisis. So what the hell does that even mean, I feel like my whole life has been a crisis. My only hope was that I was going to get to this point and everything would be okay. My horoscope for being a Capricorn even says that as I aged I would have more fun and "age backwards." Well it's nothing like the horoscope, that's for sure!

I didn't create this blog to bitch and moan about getting old. I want to inspire myself to do better, be healthier, to stop waiting for the perfect moment to live my life.

NOW is the time. 

HERE is the place. 

I AM THE ONE!

I am currently a single Grandmother, raising my beautiful and spirited Granddaughter, alone. My health sucks, I am extremely obese, like a couple pounds away from being recruited for The Biggest Looser, or worse, My 600lb Life...

I do love my job, but that's as much a part of the problem as a way to get away. I tend to be a workaholic. 

I am looking for Balance, love, and myself. I am not sure I've ever truly known myself. I change all the time and I move quick, I run away, I hide, I get triggered and act out. All the buzz words really. 

My dream is to live a life of freedom, time freedom, financial freedom, and health freedom. I am going to find my way there. I have a ton of ideas and I am always looking for more. 

Maybe no one will read this ever, but it doesn't really matter because this is my way of finding myself and if someone wants to come along for the ride, Come on!